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These xanga people are persistant...483 days later and they're STILL asking me to join Premium! I guess they don't give up...so i'll stop being surprised.

So here i am blogging again..right now it's 2:30 am and I can't sleep. This seems to be the running trend whenever I drink coffee from Starbucks...except today I had two. Yes, two. And consequently, I'm STILL not tired. And it sucks. Because I have a final tomorrow. And no, I cant study anymore. You see, I got iced brewed coffee...which is coffee, with ice in it. ANd i think that since it is cold, I convinced myself that there really isn't caffiene in it because it isn't hot coffee, and hence isn't real coffee. WRONG. I'm wired. So..I've been studying a lot lately, so I've been living at Starbucks...you see some really interesting people when you hang around there alot...a lot of regulars. Does anyone else enjoy people-watching like I do? I love watching people and analyzing them...maybe even speculating about what their lives may be like...the perfect places to do that are at amusement parks...because the people are of all kids there..its interesting. On another note...today I paid $18 to get my eyebrows done (I usually go to my lady in Toronto, but its been a while and I need to go before Lindsay's wedding on sat)..and the lady did NOTHING!! I was so mad. Getting my eyebrows done is always something I look forward to because  it cleans up my face and makes me look better. This was a full let down...and $18 to boot! Boooo that sucked. I can't believe Linds is getting married on saturday...I hope that I have the emotional strength to not cry during the ceremony...cuz it may look kinda stupid if i'm standing as a bridesmaid and blubbering away in the church...hopefully i'll keep it together for once. And oh guess what...i just HAD to break out...perfect eh?! I knwo...I'm thrilled. ANyhow, i obviously don't have anything of benefit to share, because i'm wired...and mad that i'm wired. So yeah...I just wasted your time. But you love me anyways...

muah.

I'm back....for now!

Hey guys!

How's it going? I know...its been a while. It seems that every entry of mine begins the same way...after a long period of absence. This weekend I went to a convention and I had a conversation with a fellow xanga-er, and she kinda got me wanting to write again...Alright hold on...let me turn this music off so I can concentrate..

Alright there...you have my full attention. So what's been going on in my life? School. And literally, that's it. I'm not going to complain, because I'm very happy, thank God. I'm happy that I've made it to my 5th year in the program, so incredibly thankful. I never would have thought or imagined my life at this point. I'm happy with my life right now, but things around me are kind of hitting me hard. This may sound trivial, but a lot of the people closer to me are...how do  I put it...finding their other half. Now, I don't need another half, because I feel whole. I don't feel the need to be "completed" and I don't feel any of that weird "needing to be with someone to be fulfilled" stuff...But it totally weirds me out...I feel like we're all still babies...why is life moving so fast? How the heck is it that my friends are getting engaged and married...moving away, all this stuff? Its really weird for me...and I feel like I'm behind or something...like this is something I should be doing, but I'm not...like I missed a homework assignement or something. I'd be overjoyed if I found someone who complemented me, but unless I'm sure they do, I wouldn't ever risk venturing into something like that again...the first time was disasterous and regrettable enough. I don't know...I know I'm rambling. But I do know this...that this part of my life won't come or happen properly unless I know myself and find my life complete in Christ. I know that right now I'm not at that point that I should be at, so I'm happy that I'm not in a relationship when I'm not ready..anyhow..enough of that drivel..its trivial.

Anyhow.. I think I've decided to try being a vegetarian for a while..several reasons for why that is. I may go into it later, but for now, I'm still figuring it out...don't know why I chose to mention it...I'm just writing what's going on up in my head...(usually not this much..haha)..

OH today I had a planning meeting for this year's upcoming Orthodox Christian Club. I'm the president for the upcoming academic year and I'm so pumped!! So many cool things are planned and i'm sooo excited...it should be a really cool year in that sense!

4 more days of Infectious Disease!! I'm overjoyed!!!! Cardiology, here I come...hopefully. Alright...

Today I read Acts 19. I loved it when it talked about how St. Paul's hankerchief could cure people...because of his faith and love for Christ. Today in the Liturgy, the Gospel was about the Centurion who wanted his servant to be healed, but he had so much faith that he didn't even need Jesus to come the whole way, but that he knew that if Christ willed, that his servant would be healed...that's amazing faith. He just knew that Jesus could heal his servant...no doubts. Such simple and powerful faith. Same thing with St. Paul...his faith and the faith of those around him in Christ was so powerful that even his hankerchief could cure the sick..how do you have such faith? no room for doubt at all...its amazing. The other part I liked was the fact that the demons could recognize the fact that the false exorcists trying to use Christ's name to exorcise them. I don't know if this applies (go read the chapter and let me know) but this is what scares me about service...especially teaching sunday school..if you don't truly and wholly belong to Christ and your teaching isn't from Him, you can do so much harm..the devils don't fear you. But when you belong to Christ and He speaks through you, that's when you reach the kids...the deeds of the exorcists were revealed and they fled, and Jesus' name was magnified..their intentions could have been good, but they're trying to preach something they know nothing about.....do you see the correlation?

Anyhow...I'm going to go sleep. I'll keep you posted! And lets see if this thing actually gets read or not!!

Good night :)

American History X

Damn. Damn. And Damn.

I know...another post...this is getting kinda crazy! OK..I just finished watching American History X...and that movie was...wow. I don't even know where to begin. First of all, I don't think many people read this...probably because I don't really xanga all that often...and cuz most of my friends (except my BEST FRIEND SHAUN) don't really do much of this. But whatever...I need to take this moment to say that this movie was exceptional. it was highly disturbing, but it was insane. I don't recommend watching it if you get easily disturbed...and i'd also suggest that you shut your eyes at some parts...but the theme was crazy. why do i watch such controversial stuff? why do i do this to my brain?? anyhow...the movie was wayyy crazier than Crash in terms with its tackling the topic of racism. it follows the story of a neo-nazi leader and his downfall and his quest to shield his brother from following the same track...the movie was insane...I don't know what else to say. but you know what really angered me?? I went on the IMDb to see how it rated, and I glanced over the message boards....what REALLY disturbed me was that this movie went above and beyond to prove the fact that we're ALL HUMAN...blacks arent' different from whites, or from asians...we're all the same! We're all the same stuff...why hate? As the movie said, hate is baggage. The boards were scattered with racism...and fights among people over race...WHY. WHY! we're all made of the same stuff!! a human is a human...so freakin stop it!! some FREAKING IGNORANT IDIOT had a post titled "any other people think pakis are useless?"...and i went off on him at that point and wrote a scathing response. PEOPLE make me soooo MAD!!! this is ridiculous....the whole movie was made to show that this isn't worth it...so why are you sooo ignorant? don't they have eyes and limbs like you? what makes you so different? because someone's skin is darker from living closer to the equator? grow the hell up! Anyhow. i highly recommend this movie...and also, if you're reading this, let me know...why not. alright..i promise i'm not upset...just disgusted. watch it..and let me know. beware of graphic scenes though. ok i'm out.

LIFE OF DAVID GALE

Hey guys...

OK...it must be BIG if i'm posting this soon. I just watched "Life of David Gale"...and I have decided that it is VERY POSSIBLY the best movie I have ever seen. And that means A LOT considering I'm a huge movie buff. GUYS...it was insaaaaaane...you NEED to see this...like...its 1 am right now, and I for sure can't sleep because it was sooo amazing....Like..I don't even know what else to say except if you love me (or i mean even if you don't..cuz that's ok too..haha)..PLEASE watch this movie...and then let me know how you feel about it. Of course any Kevin Spacey movie is bound to be ridiculously amazing, but this one takes the cake. Don't let the fact that Kate Winslet is in it deter you from watching it...because she's actually decent.  Wow...I don't even know what else to say...but I've decided that one of my missions in life is now to make everyone watch that movie...so pleeease rent it and let me know..its a masterpiece. Last night, I also saw Match Point...which was also more than decent, but now that I've seen Life of David Gale, everything else seems mediocre. But it is definitely noteworthy. However, the night before THAT, i saw "the break up"...and maybe it sucked for me because I built it up so much...but that was definitely abysmal. but its ok. alright...pleeease watch David Gale...PLEASE..and let me know. ok i'll stop nagging now.

me

RAVENOUSLY HUNGRRYYY

hi hi hi!!

yeah its been a while...i actually think all my entires begin with "its been a while"...sad. You know what? i ran across an old blog I had about a year and a half ago...dude..its CRAZYYY. I've changed sooo much...thank God!! Man...I don't know how people could deal with me..i was quite the case!! Anyhow..it was interesting. So i'm back in toledo...chillin...everyone's leaving for Europe this weekend, so it should be really quiet. I'm taking a Medicinal and Poisonous plants course..so far, its really interesting, which is always good. I moved closer to school, so now I walk everywhere, which is also really good. Shaun...I also need a bike!! My life is pretty normal right now, thank God! I'm just hanging in there and enjoying the ride. Frig..last night, i worked out with my friend. We spent well over an hour just on legs. I CAN'T MOVE. I woke up this morning to go running with her, and I COULDN'T MOVE. Somehow I dragged my butt to the park...but it was a stretch. Tomorrow's arms...oh Lord. And I must say...I'm a sorry runner. I can't even run! Jogging is more like it....and for like NOT LONG. Girls aren't built to run. I'm so convinced of that. No matter what Victoria's Secret comes out with, nothing can do the job when you're running. I think I'm heading home this weekend to hang out...and one of my friend invited me to an Indian wedding! SO i'm considering going...should be fun. And shaun...i TOTALLY agree about the women wearing shorts and how it shouldn't happen...we're SO on the same page.

I think my calling in life is to stop fashionably challenged people and to change their lives...what do you think...

Ta ta for now. I'll probably be writing more if I'm as bored as this while i'm sitting at work. kbye!!

me